To explain where I am, I need to tell you about the beginning.
I went to art school for painting but half way through I switched to graphic design out of fear of not being able to support myself – I did that for 10 years in corporate settings as well as having my own business after the birth of my second child.
I stopped working for a couple of years to focus on my family. Just as the youngest was off to kindergarten and I was headed back to work, 9/11 happened. I decided then to go back to painting. I joined an artist group and moved into a studio space. I worked in pastel and oil; I was fairly traditional at first but soon evolved. I loved flower painting especially the color. I was bold and confident. I was good at it. I had exhibitions, sold a bit, gave a few talks and workshops. Not a lot, but enough to keep it interesting. I did that for about 10 years.
When that same kid was headed to college, I moved my studio home to save money. Shortly after that I began to lose interest in flowers and started to search for some new kind of meaning. I gave myself permission to play. I experimented. I did a yearlong project where I did the opposite of everything I normally did while painting. I had a show of the work. I spent a while on watercolor reviving the flowers. I made big expressive abstracts. I went back to the flowers. I was searching for that bold confidence and easy joy, but I couldn’t find it. At the beginning of 2020 I was working on self-portraits with flowers. They felt forced.
When the pandemic hit I stopped. I was stuck, I took out my watercolors and stared to make leaf shaped marks, one after the other, every day. I painted the repetition and the accumulation of days. The sameness. After several months I started to make landscapes, big fields I that I couldn’t cross. These have evolved into misty futures I can’t really see.
I am now in the process of introducing this new work and trying to figure out where to go from here as well as trying to building a better business with a more consistent social media presence.